When me and Georgina went to this vast graveyard in Southampton, we wondered around looking for gothic inspiration, and good light for photos. when it reached the end of our walk we stated talking about life itself and what we where taught in school and what we really believe happens after death; this subject is fascinating as there are endless ideas, but we will never know until our time comes.
It really made me think of how scared I am of dying, I never used to be, I was fearless when I was younger, I new that we are young, grow up and then we die, but as I am getting older more things scare me, maybe it's that I am learning more about life and how in an instant it can be taken away.
I am with someone who is in the army and I think that maybe this has caused my unease with death, as he becomes emotionless with the concept saying to me "yes you die, but there is nothing you can do so why be upset" I think it is built into them to cut off this connection with emotion but I feel lost in it I think of all the things that will hurt me or my loved ones; getting hit by a car, some crazy person trying to hurt me the list is endless.
When I looked at each grave we walked by, my heart felt cold, to think someone was once alive in a time and place maybe similar to mine, now gone, dark in a wooden box. The concept of darkness scares me and the unknowing of what it will feel like, if you can feel it at all!
All of this made me think of how it would have felt to be miss Havisham, alone, in a dark house, with no soul to keep her warm, she was already half dead, loosing a loved one, maybe not in death but being jilted is just has heart breaking as death. She could have moved on but she made a decision to keep time still. Just like these graves, they will forever stand still, alone and dark with trees and roots rapping around them, weather beating the stone so you cannot see who lays beneath; she is in the coffin she has created, waiting for death to finally take her to piece.
Within architecture you can see similarity's some more harsh than others like the two below, the left is very subtle and the right is very to the point of Gothic!
They feature pointed arches on windows and doors, heavy stone and dramatic roves.
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